Wednesday, January 28, 2009

祝我生日快乐

我知道伤心不能改变什么那么
让我诚实一点诚实
难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门 不必理谁
一个人坐在空荡包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
难想切歌 切掉回忆的画面眼泪不能流过十二点
生日快乐 我对自己说
蜡烛点了 寂寞亮了
生日快乐 泪也溶了
我要谢谢 你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你 带一点恨
还要时间 才能平衡
热恋伤痕 画面重生
祝我生日快乐

happy birthday to me...
It's been a norm even since I was born. My family does not fancy to celebrate birthday for any family member. I'm get used to it. It's been 23 years. But, I do not know why, this year birthday, I have a very strange and weird feeling. I feel so upset and disappointed. My heart just feel so "sour"... I'm not saying that I didn't celebrate. Instead my friends had celebrated for me in advance. Somehow, deep in my heart, I feel very uneasy. I do know why... Then, this song, <> by Landy just pop up from nowhere. I turned on my windows player and played the song. As the song played, my heart getting more uneasy. I do not know what I'm writting now either. I'm so confused and down now.
Anyway, happy birthday to me... :)

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Malam Kebudayaan Cina (MKC) - 1

Malam Kebudayaan Cina a.k.a MKC, is a very important project/activity in my residential college (7th RC, UM). This is a much awaited program for most of the chinese students in UM. Its pedigree and reputation has been shown through out the pass few years where I can very much declare that it was one of the most successful organized activity in the whole UM.

MKC is an annual program which will be held around January/February every academic year. This year, the program is scheduled to be held around February. Despite being an inaugural and prestigious program, but, I'm very sorry to say that my own juniors did not even know the importance of the program. I'm saying this from the deepest feeling of my heart, as a senior and also an individual which enjoyed an unforgettable experience in my 1st year. The program is organized wholly by the 1st year students, and under the guidance from the seniors. But even till now, I can't see the eagerness and excitement shown by the juniors towards to this program. I'm very DISAPPOINTED with this. I could still remember that when I was in my 1st year around this time, every single individual of my badge were busying with all kinds of practices and bureau works. But I could see none of these things happen among the juniors this year. What had actually happened? Can anyone please tell me the answer? Aint the juniors feel nervous nor worried to see that they had did basically nothing about the MKC? I can frankly tell that they had only done 10% of what they need to do to successfully organize the MKC. If my dear juniors thought that MKC is just another program which can be done "cincai-ly" or just equal with the freshies nite that they had done, then they must face the truth that, their freshies nite was nowhere near 50% of the MKC standard. My heart is really broken, with a bang, into countless of pieces...

I purposely stayed at the college yesterday as I thought that they might well be doing some bureau works or practice for the performance, but I was WRONG. I did not see anything that they had done in the whole morning and afternoon. I intentionally sitting at the Intellecture Square (IS), hoping to help out for anything they wanted to do. But, to my GREAT disappointment, I could not even see them did anything, not the bureau works nor the practices. I was really such a dummy, planning greatly to help the juniors whom DO NOT even worry for themselves. I could still remember that none of us had gone back home or even went to shopping on any weekend during our preparation for the program. NONE of us had ever dreamt of doing so either. We were just focusing in the MKC alone. Our practice time was basically from every 8pm onwards till 3-4am daily (excluding for the drum team). We hardly slept for more than 4hrs daily. We gotta wake up at 8am for classes, attend the class and do all sorts of homeworks, tutorials and assignments. Then, when the clock ticked at 8pm, all of us will automatically go to meetings and briefing, and then we'll start practicing or doing our bureau works. We were so united then, and I really enjoy and love this kind of feelings. I really missed those experience, eating and sleeping together, drawing and painting banners and back-drop together, making door gifts, and even sleep in dewan makan (canteen) together. Those were really great experience and really did unite us and created an unbreakable bond among us. However, sad to say that, I really doubt that this year's juniors will be able to experience the kind of experience we had. I really feel for them. sigh~~

The time is short, MKC is just around corner. My dear juniors, please heed my advice and start doing what you need to do. I am really worried about this year's MKC. Please start to take it seriously. I will always be by your side and support you all. I will accompany you all to practice and even help out your bureau works. Promised!!!

MKC, Hoseh! MKC, Hoseh! MKC, Hoseh, Hoseh, Hoseh!!!