A little story of J (part 1) - a trully "unforgetable" experience

In this blog entry, I would like to share a little story of a young boy named J, from his birth to his youth... I hope that this blog entry will be able to enlighten your day and provide food for thought for every frens of mine (although not many people viewing my blog >.<)...

Once upon a time, in a place called Taman Miharja, there lived a "Tong" family. A family of five members, the father; the mother; the daughther; the son; but they are not the main character of this blog though... >.< The main character of the story is the youngest member of the Tong family, J... Ever since the day J was born, he is destined to be a hyperactive and excel in socialize ... When he was five years old (I assumed, coz i'd forgotten the exact age), he had an Indian (perhaps an Indonesian) fren who's living opposite of his "kampung" house (village house)... The Indian boy's father worked as a site worker... The Indian boy's family is so accidentantly staying opposite of J's house because they are staying in the workers hostel which is located next to the site... By that time, J can only speaks in Cantonese, not even Mandarin; of coz, he had never learnt to speak in Bahasa Malaysia, nor Bahasa Tamil... Suprisingly, despite the communication lag, J could still communicate very well with the Indian boy...
Since then, the Indian boy has been the best fren for J... J would spend almost the entire afternoon staying at the Indian boy's house to play... Although they both did not share the same language, and yet, they managed to come out with a set of "advanced" communication code: the "body language" and "eye contact"... Wait, wait, now let us deviate from the story for a while... However, there's 1 question i wished to raise: I really cant recall how J could communicate with the Indian boy and how he did that... can any1 please help to solve this mysterious puzzle??
Ok, now let us continue with the story, J was playing some kind of "masak-masak" with the Indian boy... and the Indian boy's mom came and said something that J had never heard of in his entire life!! (5 years old!!!) Although J never understood what the aunty was saying, but he could guessed it out.. It is done through a very sophisticated and thorough analysis (the aunty was pointing at the clock which shows 12:30pm and put another hand on her stomach, rubbing it)... and J's analysis was: "The aunty, was saying: "it is lunch time now, r u hungry? do u want to eat something"... " so, J looked at his stomach, and started to feel the hunger spreading through his nerves in haste... Thus, J knocked his head without second thought and followed the aunty to the kitchen...
J was sitting at the dinning table and "communicating" (I used "communicate" coz J wasnt talking in language that the Indian boy understand and vice versa; therefore "speaking", "talking" and "chatting" are not applicable) with the Indian boy... Just few moments later, J smelled something strong and nice, that he has never ever smelled in his entire life (once again, it's 5 years old!!!)... the dish was serve with a yellowish sauce and few beans on top of it and some vegetables beneath it... J was so curious of what the dish is and is so eager to taste the dish, coz the dish smelled reallllly NICE~~ so, once the rice was served and placed in front of J, immediately he tooked the spoon and "digged" deep into the dish, pouring all the sauces into his rice... once the rice was filled with the yellowish sauce, he felt so great and proud... Finally, he could started to taste the smelled-good-dish...
Then, J put the spoon, fully-filled with rice and the beans with the sauce, into his tiny mouth... He chewed the food, tasted it, and.............. he cried!!!! because he was eating "dal" (a kind of curry dish) cooked with chillies... It was so so so so so dXmn (censored) spicy... And now, he finally tasted the infamous curry which tops the most edible food chart in UK... However, this was a reallllly painful experience... An experience that gained through "blood and sweat"...

So... that is a little story of J.. A story that showed how he befriend with a guy of different ethnic and his 1st time experience of eating curry... hope that this could enlighten the readers' day, and be able to put a smile back on your lovely face...

p.s the moral of story is.........

curry is really spicy~~ ^^ (kidding)
Do not simply eat things that you never tried... (this is real)

specially dedicated to "U noe" xiao shou coz I read ur blog and knew that u are kinda geram with certain things... hope that this could make u smile lar.. ^^

I wonder what the Indian boy is doing right now, and wish to see him again.. Although I do not know your whereabout, but I sincerely wish you all the best in everything you do, take care, my pal.. God bless ya~~

今天只做一件事

发觉这世界永远太少空间
因此花一天支配一切时间
发觉这世界永远太晒心机
因此花一天思索一切道理

消失太快 捉得到太少
因此花一天感觉一切是爱
茫茫人海 或有几多漂泊与淹盖
人人寻找爱 或有几多争斗与比赛
越觉得剩低几多未变的爱

慢慢地合作新诗 静静地同床午睡
再发现岁月换来几次厌闷几多亲爱
有各样劫灾 和充满意外
因此我要努力继续能恋爱

慢慢地迈向听朝 静静地怀念昨日
再决定今天只要相信爱
叫皱纹散开 唤青春归来
因此我喜欢花一天感觉一切是爱

发觉这世界永远太少深刻
因此花一天改变一切习惯
发觉这世界永远太多跷蹊
因此花一天拥有一切运气

消失太快 捉得到太少
因此花一天感觉一切是爱
茫茫人海 或有几多漂泊与淹盖
人人寻找爱 或有几多争斗与比赛
越觉得剩低几多未变的爱

慢慢地合唱K歌 静静地同游网上
再发现岁月换来几次厌闷几多亲爱
有各样劫灾 和充满意外
因此我要努力继续能恋爱

慢慢地迈向听朝 静静地怀念昨日
再决定今天只要相信爱
叫皱纹散开 唤青春归来
因此我喜欢花一天感觉一切是爱

喜欢花一天跟你一切是爱

This is a new song by Eason Chan in his brand new album, "H3M"... I like this song very much... The rythem is nice and the lyrics are meaningful... Here is some food for thought for my dear frens:

how long have u never sit down and talk with ur families? When was the last time u went to shopping with ur families or ur loved one? When was the last time u sat alone and listen to music, without thinking about ur job or studies? Had u missed out on the most beautiful things that happened just around u?

Now, it's time to medidate and appreciate the beauty of the nature... ^^

An afterthought of an ordinary rainy day..

Tit-tat... Tit-tat...
The raindrops are gently hitting the surface of earth. They are moisturizing the mother of nature, reenergize the already tired and dried-up soil... GalGal, my beloved puppy, is sitting beside me in the room. She's afraid of the lightning and rain... Wat a cute puppy she is... On the other hand, i'm drinking a cup of hot coffee, the world most amazing drink and my most favourite drink~~

On this rainy day, I'm thinking about my past and my future... I was deeply distressed for the passed whole month... It all begun when I was in love with a person whom I should not fall into... Something urgent happened 2 weeks ago... It disrupted my plan... Even since my Macroeconomics 3 exam on 27/5/09, I never studied for the following 3 papers... I just do not have the 'mood' and heart to study... I even left earlier for an English paper... I just simply do the exam and never really checked my writtings... What makes me even more distressed is that I was not offered the placing in National University of Singapore... I had lost hope for my final semester result... 4.0 is beyond the reach...

As soon as I came back from Langkawi Island, I made an important decision... I made the call for a split... As I could not take it any longer... I had reached the maximum level of perserverence and patient... I opted for a way that I never wished that I will make... Ever since, I'd been struggling for my life... I just do not have the motivation and will to do anything... I was simply an useless person for the past week... Sleep, eat, watch drama, football and gaming, that's all I'd done for the past week... I just could not take her out of my head... I sms her regarding her internship and also the release of her exam result... I could sensed that she wish to talk and chat with me, but I intentionally gave her a cold shoulder... I know it is hard to take for both of us, but it is something that I must do... By doing so, I hope that it will settle once and for all... It's so suffering... I could not see the end of the struggle... It seems like a never-ending struggling... Lord, when it will end??

However, what'd done has been done... All I can do is to hold on with my decision, be firm and tough with the decision... I've made up my mind... I must recover and put the smiles back to my face again... Lord, I believe that I can make it with the help of Almighty...

Rewind (倒带)

我受够了等待你所谓的安排
说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及 才知道我可爱
我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带　你给的全是空白
一个人假日发呆　找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的门外　却一直都进不来
你累积给的伤害　我是真的很难释怀终于
看开爱回不来　而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开　哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来　我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开　宁愿没出息求我别离开

你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来　我的眼泪却一直掉下来
过去怎么交代你该给的信赖　
被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖
从我脸上的苍白　看到记忆慢下来
过去甜蜜在倒带　只是感觉已经不在
而我对你的期待　被你一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块　要怎么拼凑跟重来
终于看开爱回不来　而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开　哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来　我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开　宁愿没出息求我别离开

~ The End ~

This song, written by Jay Chou and sang by Jolin Chai, is best represent my current status... I went to karaoke the other day, just a day after return from the Langkawi trip... I was in a really bad and down mood earlier... Then, my fren opted for this song... and I was in great shock... however, i still sang the whole song coz it's one of my favourite song~~~ Nevertheless, I sang the song with full emotion~~~

The lyrics suit my current situation best, especially the waiting part... I'd been asked to wait and wait and wait... I persevered for 2 years but nothing happened... I can only planned for the future in my own most imaginative and creative way... The "future" seems like an unreaching scenario... When I am alone and longing for the companion of my love one, I found no one... When everyone is enjoying the companion of their love one, all I have is myself... Looking at other people holding hands, I can only jealous and imagine me holding the hands of my loved one... I stand at the outside of the gate of happiness, yet, the gate never opened for me... I just could not stand with the hurt anymore... All the hope I had before this are broken into pieces, impossible to be restored... I am lost... I cant find a way to start all over again... I opted for a decision that took a great courage for me to make... It is a tough decision... It is a decision that I never wanted to make, but it is necessarily for me to take...

Zhu, I am sorry~~

1st time being drunk..

Frankly speaking... I'd never been drunk before... I am not saying I am a hard drinker... I just dont enjoy drinking... Thus, I always wonder how is the feeling of being drunk? I always wonder why people misbehave after being drunk.. Why people always get so high and emotional when drunk?

Finally, I had the opportunity of being drunk for the 1st time in my entire life... It happened in Langkawi Island... What makes it more significant is that it is my own will that I wanted to drink... Kinda magnificent isn't it?? It is my own request and will to drink liquor... On that night itself, about 15 of us were drinking beer and chivas+coke at the seaside... We were playing some games and also celebrated one of my friend's birthday... We were chatting and talking since this might be the last time we will be gathering after completing our undergraduate course... We were so enjoyed... We played till about 1.30am and almost finished all the beers and liquor...

However, there were 5 of us stay put after most people had left... We were cleaning up the mess and also the remaining beers... I think there were about 5 cans left... We kept on drinking, drinking and drinking~~ Finally the 5 cans were all finished... Then, we felt that it was still not enough... We then took another bottle of Chivas out... We drank again~~

All of us were so drunk~~ it is said that people who are depressed always get drunk easily... I totally agreed with the statement... I were kinda drunk that nite and even vomitted... Nevertheless, we were kinda crazy that night... We sang UM song, College song, and even did some stupid things like running while hugging someone... We were so noisy and crazy that night... Now I understand why people always do crazy stuffs when get drunk... I was just so high emotionally and cant control my behavior...

Nevertheless, this will be the one and only time that I get drunk... Sincerely speaking, I still dun like to drink liquor~~ haha... one time experience is enough already~~ :)

p.s: Patricia, Kant, WeWe and MeiLee, thanks for accompanying me for that night... Thanks for taking away my "1st time"~~ :)

爱情学分

最近，

看着身边的朋友在爱情这条路上跌跌撞撞。

爱情，

这门学分有这么难修吗？

为什么不能 1+1=2 这样简单。

爱情，

总是给了人们太多的想象，

人们期待爱情会有一个完美的结局，

但是，什么结局才是完美的结局呢？

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《爱情故事一》

她和他的开始没有爱情的感觉，只是他觉得她是一个很特别女孩。

她和他的开始没有恋爱开始的一般甜蜜，

她和他也没有所谓的心动的感觉，

她和他拥有的只是对对方的信任。

可是，朋友和情人是两回事。

她常因他的大男人和疏忽而发脾气，

他也因她的霸道承受了很大的压力。

最近，

他跟另一个女孩有暧昧，

她的心被伤了，流了很多眼泪……

她才发现她深深地爱着男孩。

但是，

她跟他还有一个未完成的约定，

如果这个约定可以将她和他的爱情挽回，就继续走下去。

如不，就结束了。

但是，上天并没有兼顾她。

隔天，她发现自己可能患上一个随时失去自己的生命的病症。

在这种情况，他只能在尝试在这段感情付出。

毕竟，他有可能照顾她的日子也不长了……

你说，故事的结局将会是什么……

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《爱情故事二》

他是男孩和女孩之间的第三者，

只因他的莽撞就介入了男孩和女孩之间。

他不知道男孩的一切，

男孩却知道他的一切。

男孩不断的伤害女孩却不肯放手。

他只能为女孩心疼，

他不能做什么，因为他只是一个闯入者。

他只有疯狂地为女孩付出一切。

他知道男孩和女孩分手的消息后。

他以为他会开心，

但是，

他只感觉到内疚……

到底他是对还是错的……

到底他们还该不该继续……

他不知道，

或者爱情从来都没有道理可言，

他总是找可以接受的理由来安慰自己。

男孩和女孩到现在还是在一起，

他和女孩还是在一起，

就这样三个人就纠缠了一年多。

分分合合，是是非非……

在这个爱情里，

三个人都在痛苦挣扎着，

谁都不是赢家……
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爱情中没有对错，没有先来后到，只有爱或不爱。

在爱情的世界里，没有输赢的，只有爱与不爱。

爱就要爱得痛快，不爱就忘得干脆，

真正的爱，

不会太在乎自己的自尊。

真正的爱，

就该让爱的人得到自己真正的幸福。

同情与爱并不相等，让人同情自己，

只会更加受伤更加难受。

爱情是一场赌博，但爱情不是战争。

爱不是用来牵制对方，也不是用来打败对方的。

爱情里谁又是胜利者，谁又是失败者呢？

爱了就投入地去爱一场，

谁又会说爱得深，爱得多的就是输家呢？

爱得真实，爱得彻底，

在生命中得到了真爱，

有多少人一生都没有遇到自己的真爱。

爱了就爱了，

体验了，幸福了

伤了，痛了，

不要为自己的付出而后悔。

Adopted from http://babymoon2310.blog.friendster.com/

祝我生日快乐

我知道伤心不能改变什么那么
让我诚实一点诚实
难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门 不必理谁
一个人坐在空荡包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
难想切歌 切掉回忆的画面眼泪不能流过十二点
生日快乐 我对自己说
蜡烛点了 寂寞亮了
生日快乐 泪也溶了
我要谢谢 你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你 带一点恨
还要时间 才能平衡
热恋伤痕 画面重生
祝我生日快乐

happy birthday to me...
It's been a norm even since I was born. My family does not fancy to celebrate birthday for any family member. I'm get used to it. It's been 23 years. But, I do not know why, this year birthday, I have a very strange and weird feeling. I feel so upset and disappointed. My heart just feel so "sour"... I'm not saying that I didn't celebrate. Instead my friends had celebrated for me in advance. Somehow, deep in my heart, I feel very uneasy. I do know why... Then, this song, <> by Landy just pop up from nowhere. I turned on my windows player and played the song. As the song played, my heart getting more uneasy. I do not know what I'm writting now either. I'm so confused and down now.
Anyway, happy birthday to me... :)

Malam Kebudayaan Cina (MKC) - 1

Malam Kebudayaan Cina a.k.a MKC, is a very important project/activity in my residential college (7th RC, UM). This is a much awaited program for most of the chinese students in UM. Its pedigree and reputation has been shown through out the pass few years where I can very much declare that it was one of the most successful organized activity in the whole UM.

MKC is an annual program which will be held around January/February every academic year. This year, the program is scheduled to be held around February. Despite being an inaugural and prestigious program, but, I'm very sorry to say that my own juniors did not even know the importance of the program. I'm saying this from the deepest feeling of my heart, as a senior and also an individual which enjoyed an unforgettable experience in my 1st year. The program is organized wholly by the 1st year students, and under the guidance from the seniors. But even till now, I can't see the eagerness and excitement shown by the juniors towards to this program. I'm very DISAPPOINTED with this. I could still remember that when I was in my 1st year around this time, every single individual of my badge were busying with all kinds of practices and bureau works. But I could see none of these things happen among the juniors this year. What had actually happened? Can anyone please tell me the answer? Aint the juniors feel nervous nor worried to see that they had did basically nothing about the MKC? I can frankly tell that they had only done 10% of what they need to do to successfully organize the MKC. If my dear juniors thought that MKC is just another program which can be done "cincai-ly" or just equal with the freshies nite that they had done, then they must face the truth that, their freshies nite was nowhere near 50% of the MKC standard. My heart is really broken, with a bang, into countless of pieces...

I purposely stayed at the college yesterday as I thought that they might well be doing some bureau works or practice for the performance, but I was WRONG. I did not see anything that they had done in the whole morning and afternoon. I intentionally sitting at the Intellecture Square (IS), hoping to help out for anything they wanted to do. But, to my GREAT disappointment, I could not even see them did anything, not the bureau works nor the practices. I was really such a dummy, planning greatly to help the juniors whom DO NOT even worry for themselves. I could still remember that none of us had gone back home or even went to shopping on any weekend during our preparation for the program. NONE of us had ever dreamt of doing so either. We were just focusing in the MKC alone. Our practice time was basically from every 8pm onwards till 3-4am daily (excluding for the drum team). We hardly slept for more than 4hrs daily. We gotta wake up at 8am for classes, attend the class and do all sorts of homeworks, tutorials and assignments. Then, when the clock ticked at 8pm, all of us will automatically go to meetings and briefing, and then we'll start practicing or doing our bureau works. We were so united then, and I really enjoy and love this kind of feelings. I really missed those experience, eating and sleeping together, drawing and painting banners and back-drop together, making door gifts, and even sleep in dewan makan (canteen) together. Those were really great experience and really did unite us and created an unbreakable bond among us. However, sad to say that, I really doubt that this year's juniors will be able to experience the kind of experience we had. I really feel for them. sigh~~

The time is short, MKC is just around corner. My dear juniors, please heed my advice and start doing what you need to do. I am really worried about this year's MKC. Please start to take it seriously. I will always be by your side and support you all. I will accompany you all to practice and even help out your bureau works. Promised!!!

MKC, Hoseh! MKC, Hoseh! MKC, Hoseh, Hoseh, Hoseh!!!