Sense of Secure..

What is sense of secure to us? How would we define sense of secure? Who should provide the sense of secure and who should be the one receiving? I have a set of answers which might not be recognized by all. Anyhow, I just wish to share with my fellow friends.

A lot of my friends think that i'm a childish and playful person. I seems like not being serious enough in most of the time. And some even comment that I can't provide the sense of secure to them. But is it the real character of mine? I only can tell that the perception is incorrect. That's not the real me. The playful side of me is only a part of me. Friends who are close with me will agree with my point. Only those who are close enough with me will know my real character. My philosophy is "Play Hard, Work Smart". Therefore, whenever I'm in the mood of playing, I'll be 100% committed, and of coz, vice versa when I'm in the mood of working. I think that we need not to be 100% serious all the time. We are human, we need to find an equilibrium in our state of mind. We can't just keep ourselves under pressure for most of the time.

A chinese proverb says that "Great Wisdom is like being absurd". I'm totally agreed with the proverb. We need not to show to people how much talent we have, nor we need to concern about what others perceive about us. Sometimes, a person who acts as being naive doesn't means that the person is really naive. My frens, what are your comment about it?

10 promises to my Dogs

I watched a Japanese movie recently which caught my eyes. The movie is about a dog name "Socks", and its owner. The movie is very touching and i like the movie so much. It reminds me of my 2 lovely doggies. Thus, I'd listed out the 10 promises that the movie emphasized so much about how we should treat our dog. The following is the list of promises:

1.) Give me time to understand what you want of me.

2.) Place your trust in me. It’s crucial to my well-being.

3.) Be aware that however you treat me, I’ll never forget about it.

4.) Before you scold me for being lazy, ask yourself if something might be bothering me

5.) Talk to me sometimes. Even if I don’t understand your words, I do understand your voice when it’s speaking to me.

6.) Remember before you hit me, I have teeth that could hurt you, but that I choose not to bite you.

7.) Take care of me when I get old.

8.) You have your work, your entertainment, and your friends. I have only you.

9.) My life is likely to last 10 to 15years. Any separation from you will be painful for me.

10.) Go with me on difficult journeys. Everything is easier for me if you are there. Remember I love you...

My dear friends who own doggies, hope that my little message will provide some food for thought to you, and start treat your dogs with love and care.

My favourite song of all..

My frens… This is my favourite song of all..
hope u enjoy it..

軌跡

怎麼隱藏我的悲傷﹐失去你的地方。
你的髮香散的匆忙﹐我已經跟不上。
閉上眼睛還能看見你離去的痕跡。
在月光下一直找尋那想念的身影。
如果說分手是苦痛的起點﹐
那在終點之前我願意再愛一遍。
想要對你說的不敢說的愛﹐
會不會有人明白

* 我會發着呆,然後忘記你﹐接着緊緊閉上眼。
想着那一天會有人代替你﹐讓我不再想念你。
我會發着呆﹐然後微微笑﹐接着緊緊閉上眼。
又想了一遍你溫柔的臉﹐在我忘記之前。
心裡的眼淚﹐模糊了視線﹐我已快看不見。

Hope u LUV tis song… *.~

Never Ending Love

Love, is a promise. It’s an eternal one and everlasting.

Love, is trust. We must trusted and trust each other.

Love, is patient. Tolerate is the key to close relationship.

Love, is grace. It’s the best gift that God has ever graced us.

Love, is not jealousy. Envy will only bring forth self destruction.

Love, is a vow. One which we must keep at all cost.

Love, has no ending. It’s last forever and ever till the end of the world.

Love, is a true feeling. It will not fade at any cost and will only grow deeper.

Love, is a covenant. It’s like the covenant of rainbow between God and human.

Love, is truthful. We must not betray our beloved one.

Love, is caring. Care the one u love more than anything on the world.

Love, is gentle. Anger will bring along agony and bitterness.

Love, is unconditional. Unconditional love is the highest degree of love - AGAPE LOVE

My dear friends, i wish to dedicate this passage to all of u, hoping to remind u the very basic of love. May u all able to find your true love someday.

God

Loves

U...

Declaring War on Cigarattes !!

I had enough!! I’d been living in a scrutinized world where the values of the world had been twisted! Yes, I’m talking to you people, you smokers! I had enough!

I’m writting this blog hoping to make you guys aware and understand how hatred i am to you people! You people must not aware how you make people around you suffered! As a person who had been affected directly from smoking, i really hate cigarattes!! You people are making the person around you to suffer involuntary. I’m the living example.
My father is a heavy smoker. Even before i was born, he already been a heavy smoker. The only image that he gave me is that he smokes non-stop, from dawn to dust. As a result, he’s been the most hatred figure of mine. As he walks pass anywhere, the "aroma" of cigarattes just follows him to everywhere. The odour is just so digusting!! And i always cover my nose whenever he starts smoking around me.

I just don’t understand why the smokers keep on smoking. They are just paying to buy sufferings. They seems like do not understand the harm that cigarettes will bring about to them. What i’m meaning here is not only damages caused psyhically, but something deeper than that. Just for example, my relationship with my dad ruined and messed up because of smoking. A lot of people complaining about the petrol price hike and the soaring of food prices. The most talked about topic is how to save petrol and save money. But ironically, among all the ideas and ways discussed, no one would suggest to reduce the smoking habit. Ridiculous right?
Hopefully, my fellow friends who read this article would be inspired by my sharing. The least i wish to achieve is that my fellow friends will have some food for thought and really see this matter seriously. By doing so, it is my dream that the world will become smoke-less one day..


" World without smoke;Making the world a better place to live "

Anime, Childhood, Happiness

Phew~~ Finally, my exams had finished, assignments had been submitted, projects had been concluded, and now... I can enjoy my holiday!!! Hooray~~~

1st of all, I had not been updating my blog recently due to the enormous pressure of exam. Sounds like not so nice.. hehe.. But, since I'm enjoying my holiday now, at least for the coming 1 & 1/2 months, I can update my blog more frequently. Well, so far, it's the 2nd week into my holiday, and I spent the whole week watching an anime series, <>. It's my most favourite anime of all time and it brought back a lot of my childhood memories.

I could still remember that when I was still a kiddo, I was so keen and interested in watching anime. And it is also around this period of year end holiday which I had been waited fo whole year. Erm... I still remembered that when I was still a kid, my family's financial status has not been doing so great, and yet, I do not really understand that situation. Therefore, I always manja with my mom to rent anime for me to watch. I could still remember the anime that I manja with my mom was entitled <> (sorry, it's a direct translation because I really do not know about the English title of the anime. Hehe..) Despite the poor financial status of my family, my mom, who is so love me, still willing to rent the anime for me. I could still remember that I would start waiting in front of the video shop early in the morning every time when there's a new episode arrived. I would be "competing" with lots of other kids of my age for the new episode. When I got the new episode, I would be so so so excited even though the excitement would last around 1hr only (because the show's duration is only 1hr per tape). Well, I guess that's what we called the "childhood excitement", simple wish but effective to make a kid to fell happy. I guess, every kid is same like me. No doubt about that. How much I wish that I could maintain that kind of childhood happiness, less worries, less stress, less problems, less competitions, and more smilling faces. I hope that my dear friends could recall back the day when we would feel happy for 1 whole day by just getting a pack of chocolate. My friends, feel content and appreciate the things around us. God bless you~~

P.S. Mom, I love you. :)

Finals Coming!

Finally, I'd finished the last class of the semester (with the exclusion of co-curriculum ) today. I'm so happy now. But, on the other hand, I feel kinda sad about it. The feeling has been mixed and irony. On one hand, I'm glad that the class finished. But, it means that this semester is almost over. I'll only have another semester left. I just could not describe the mixed feeling now. I think most of the near-graduating seniors would understand what I was talking. I used to have a person who was so closed to me that I can share everything and talk everything to. But, now the person is gone. I suddenly started to miss this person again.

I feel much relaxed as the classes are finished. But on the other hand, finals is coming~~~ Headache... Nonetheless, I have to start doing my revision now and also to prepare to do my last assignment which I presented today. The presentation was ok. Not really a good presentation which impressed my lecturer. But, it's a learning process which I learnt things that never experienced before. The high standard set by my lecturer improved my standard and knowledge drastically. Thank you, Dr. Edmund. :)

I'll start doing my revision tomorrow (23/10/2008), I promised!!! Aza-aza Fighting!!

P.S. there's a high possibility that there'll be a fire drill practice in my college today... The operation should start at 2am later... Haiz... Cant sleep again...

Presentation

Phew... Finally, after 2 weeks of scrutinized preparation, I'd finished preparing the presentation of my research in the ethnicity paper. The question is about generational change of the descendents of migrants correspond with identity transformation in Malaysia and U.S. Even though it's just a piece of academic essay, but due to the high expectation from my lecturer, it's like writing a thesis!!! Nonetheless, I still enjoy doing the research because it helped me to gain more knowledge as I'm "forced" to read a lot of materials...

Well, when I was doing this research, an idea come across my thoughts. I was thinking whether should I write a thesis in my final semester. The current accumulation of my credit hours is sufficient for me to graduate even not producing a thesis, but I think otherwise. I feel like there's something missing in my undergraduate life if I do not produce a thesis of my own. But, I must consider the papers that I'll be thinking for my final semester. All the papers that I'll be taking are "Killer Papers" which drag the CGPA of most of the students. Erm... I must really take a serious consideration about it...

This semester is a bit different with my previous semesters. It's a bit compact. Time seems like not enough for me to study and do my revision. The finals is coming soon, my first paper would be on 8th Nov, but I'd not even start doing my revision yet. I still have a last assignment which I must complete. Maybe it's due to the high expectation of myself as well as from the lecturers on the quality of academic essay plus the personnal problems that I faced earlier. Maybe these issues took me some time to solve before I can really focus in preparing for my finals...

Well, I gotta prepare for class now. My class is at 12pm later and my presentation would be at 3pm later today. Wish me the best of luck lar.. :)

P.s. I couldn't sleep well again... My "beloved neighbour" who stay a floor beneath me caused me lots of troubles. They kept on creating noises even though it's late at night... It's so suffering for not having enough rest... :'(

Stil cant let go...

Today, I met with X... This is perhaps the 1st meet up in the recent 3 weeks. And, sad to say... I still cant let go of X... The feeling is still there... I'm still very much concerned and in love in X... I would think back all the sweet memories we had, as well as the bad moments...

I'd never think that I would be meeting X today as I never planned to do so... But, maybe it's God's arrangement that we met up... I was supposingly doing my assignment in the library during that hour... But, the library was closed due to the celebration of Raya Feast among the staffs... It was closed from 12.30pm - 2.00pm... Thus, I went to other place to study... When it's approaching 1.20pm, X walked pass in front of me, just straight in front of me, unexpectedly... She smiled at me, but I was not able to give any response because I was focusing in reading... But, soon after X disappear in front of my eye-sight, my focus swayed away from the book... I was thinking of X again!!! and, I was expecting X's msg!!! Suprisingly, X texted me and asked me for a lunch... But, of coz I rejected the invitation because I'd taken my lunch... Plus, I dun think I'm ready and prepared to meet up with X and behave like a normal friend... And I would like to apologize to X, if X is reading my blog, for being a bit lack of manners...

Our text conversation was short... It's only a few messages... She told me that she cant return home in the coming 1 & 1/2 months because of the finals and the replacement classes during the study break... I'm glad to hear that, because X can finally be independent and grown up... She can now justify what's important and what's best to her... I thought of the previous semester when we were studying together in the library and preparing for the finals... The memories are still there... And, it'll never be taken away nor diminish... It's like just happened yesterday... Despite all that good memories, I don't think that I'll be able to study with X again... I still can't overcome it... If I get too close with X, the feeling of love would appear again, and in the end, both parties suffer... I don't want that to happen again...

I told X about my plan to further my studies abroad... I still can't confirm with it as I need to consider many aspects... But I must admit that I'm really taking a serious consideration about the options available for me after graduated... And, another major factor for me to take such an initiative is that, I hope to forget all the bad things in Malaysia... I hope that I would be able to find a new leaf in a new environment... I can honestly share with my friends: I've lost my faith in relationship... I don't know when only I'll be able to overcome it, but I know it'll take time... I'm afraid of being hurt again by love... I realize that "Love's so Hurt"... But, is it really the way love should be? I doubt that...

I still cant get rid of X... Maybe, it's still not the time... O Lord, I'm sorry... I failed the test... I don't know what to do... Please grant me strenght and wisdom to walk my future path... Lord, send me your holy spirit to lead me and guide me... Thank you, Lord...


p.s.: I think I get food poisoned again... My stomach has not been feeling well since afternoon, and I just vomitted the lunch I took... I'm very suffering now... Can't eat and can't digest food... :'(

家好月圆

I just finished watching this exciting and nice drama, 家好月圆, not long ago. Am I a little bit outdated? Haha... I found out that this drama is interesting because I could see some link between the drama and me. And also, something that I aspired for most of my life, but are also the dream that never fulfilled for me.



When I watch this drama, the thing that impressed me the most was the togetherness of the "Gam" family. I love to watch their JoBao play with them. I love to watch the children playing among each other. Even though they had undergone lots of tests and trials, but they never lost the family value. Although JoBao did something wrong in the pass, but he's brave enough to admit his fault and rectify the mistakes. And, what catches my eyes was when he said that even though he and HorMa divorced for 10years, but the children are still his kids. The blood-ties could not be cheated and separated. Unfortunately, people who my history knows that I don't have a good father. I jealous "Gam" family. I love to have JoBao as my father. And I also love to be part of the "Gam" family.

The second thing that caught my attention was the triadic relationship among GuanJiaZai, YuShuChiew and Dr. Ling. The situation is so familiar. I do not know I'm in which position, but what I've learnt from the drama is ---- never involve in any triadic relationship. No matter under what circumstances, triadic relationship is damaging to ALL parties. And the situation like the ending of the drama rarely occurs. I'm not saying that it'll not have good ending, but the probability is so low that it is too risky to try. I'm a living example. I regretted to involve in a triadic relationship. It hurts ALL parties. Well, go back to the topic of 家好月圆, there were many scenes and dialouges that were so familiar. These are very much the deepest thought from the bottom of my heart. That's why, I'm so attracted to this drama because it's like reflecting my story.

Lastly, I would like to wish my friends 家好月圆 and also being able to find your destined partner. I always believe that family ties and love are the 2 best gifts and presents from God. Hope that my friends will cherish the greatest gifts. God Bless~~

Friend or no friend?

It's 12.55am, and i'm still awake. I just had a shower after came back from futsal. And my mood is very down and depressed now. Once again, I'm thinking of X again. I'd told myself to let go, but it's a really painful and suffering transition. So, I'd decided to write this blog. I do not know whether X will read my blog or not, but, it does not matter anymore. It's the feeling of my heart which I think I should write it down and share with my friends. I hope that this blog will provide some food for thought to my beloved friends.



Just not too long ago, I shared with a close friend of mine. And we talked about this issue of whether we can befriend with our partner after break up. My instant reaction was a "Yes". I thought that why should we be so cruel to our ex-partner even though we could not be together. I believe that we could still be our friend even though we could not be together. However, my friend's answer was the opposite of mine. I could not agree with him by then. And I just could not understand his reasons.



But now, after I experienced the situation myself, I can finally understand why my friend said so. Now I realized that it is not a decision of choice. It's not whether we want to befriend with our ex, but it's a matter of whether we can befriend with our ex. Why whould I said so? I have to keep myself distant from X. Because when I'm close to X, I just cant let go. I could not stop myself from concerning about X. I could not stop myself thinking of X. I could not stop thinking of reaching X and hold X's hand again. I just could not stop myself. In order to stop all these and not to give fake hope to each other again, I choose to distant myself from X. I do not mind even it is a ultra-normal friendship, but, I just do not want to hurt each other again.



My friend who knew my situation recently asked me about the details of my split. But I did not share with them. Because I do not want to reveal the things and afraid that some unexpected side effects would occured. I had a bad experiece, and I do not want it to happen again. My friend might said that I'm overprotecting X, keeping all the sufferings myself. But, it does not matters anymore. I know what I'm doing. I would rather choose to hurt myself than hurting X.



If, I'm given another chance, whether would I choose to start it again in the beginning, I would choose "Yes". Because I treasured the good and sweet memories we had together more than the bitterness. I opted to keep the good things in my heart. Instead of hating X for all the bad things, I choose not to do so. Because I know that to hate a person is a painful matter. However, if I'm asked whether would I be together with X again in the future, I would say "No". Because I dare not to trust in X again. I'm afraid that I would be hurt again in the future. I prefer to keep the good impression I have about X now rather than spoiling it by choosing to be together again in the future. I would not do so.



And I realize something which is true. "The person beside us is normally not the person we love most". And "Love is not about getting the equal share of the effort we'd put in". I believe it is true. Love has never been fair. Being committed does not guaranteed success in the love. I experienced it myself. I meant what I'm saying.


X, I always give you suprises and small gifts to cheer you up. And now, I'm giving you the final "suprise" and "gift", by choosing to let go completely. I pray that you'll be able to find someone who is way better than me and worthy to your love. All the best in everything you do. May God bless every path you'll take in the future.

CC Trip

29/09/08, 1.30pm, finally, the long waited CC trip (UM 7th Residential College Chinese Community) has finally came to an end...

The latest CC trip had brought about tonnes of memories and emotional thoughts to me. Suddenly, i realized that i'm already in my 3rd year, the final year of my undergrad in UM. I'm currently in the position of my 3rd year seniors when i first entered UM. I was then, a nobody within the campus, knowing nothing, staring at the seniors and think that they are full of wisdom and experiences, way better-equipped than me. I was wondering how long would it take for me to match their status. Now, as time flies like an arrow (i'm really seriously meaning it), i'm already in my seniors position. Whether am I as good as they are, it is much subject to debate, but certainly, I'm now a better person than I was. I'd experienced lots of memories. And one of the most treasured memories is the CC trip.

When I was in my 1st year, my role was to take part, participate and enjoy the trip. But I do not know anything. I did not know what CC trip is, what's available for me, the activities that was prepared and etc. And above all, I was still not quite close with my seniors. I was just merely knew them, and the interactions was kinda distanced. But, once the CC trip started, I left all the obstacles behind, and aimed at enjoying the trip only. I could still remembered my group members in d trip, all the station games I played, the performance my group made and etc. But what I enjoyed most in the trip was the dancing part (tuan kang). I just love the parts. And even until now, I could still remember all the songs and some of the moves. At that time, we even played until 4am, just for dancing. It was so much fun by then. I cherished all my memories and experience.

And, when I moved into 2nd year, my role changed. I was no longer the participants, instead, being an organizer. I took up the role of deputy director and had plenty of works to do. The experience of being a 1st year and 2nd year are totally different. I could still remember my works during my 2nd CC trip. I was basically the driver, driving up and down hill to deliver all the meals to the participants. I hardly involved in any activities. And the 2nd task that i remembered most is the water boiling task. We had no choice but to boil the water using water heaters. And we just kept on boiling waters till no end. It was tough and tiring, and we even sleep in the canteen, side-by-side with the water heaters. However, there was one moment that I can truly enjoyed the trip was the dancing part (tuan kang). We were the learner in our 1st year, but when we were in 2nd year, we were the teacher. We had to create the moves and teach the participants. Even though it was tiring, but once the dancing part started, I was full of energy and started to play. I really enjoyed it. For me, the most interesting part of CC trip is the dancing.

And now, I just finished my 3rd year CC trip. Honestly speaking, the recent CC trip is the most organized and interesting trip. The concept of using RPG is magnificent, and the make-ups and decoration were great. But, one thing that was missing, is the dancing part. This year, my 2nd year juniors decided to cut down the dancing part, restricting it into just 3 songs. But, it's not any mistakes or wrong. It's just merely a change of style. However, when we, the 3rd year and the 4th year were given a special slot to dance, and showing to the juniors our dances and moves, we were so thrilled and excited. And then, we stand in the middle of a big circle of juniors and started our moves. And when I looked into their position, it reminds me of my 1st year. The memories just floured in. And then, during the live band slot, we danced even more. The atmosphere was terrifying and marvelous! I just love it. And, on the last day of the trip, we sang the CC song. I seldom cried, even though I felt touched. But on that day, I just felt like crying. It was so hard to control my tear drops, although I somehow managed to control it. But I must say that the song really brought back a lot of memories to me, from my 1st day entered into UM, and until now. All the little details and things that I went through, especially with my badge of 7th CC members. All the projects, activities and crazy stuffs. And, when I suddenly realized, it was already almost reaching the finishing point. And from now on, I must even cherish my days in campus more!

Lastly, I must say "WELL DONE" to my 2nd year juniors who organized such a magnificent and successful CC trip. Keep the spirit up and pass on the spirit to the juniors.

And to my fellow 3rd year and 4th year, thanks for everything that we undergone together. Those memories will never be removed from my heart.

I LOVE YOU ALL!

"Pendatang" or Citizen !?

The hottest debated current issue is about a remark made by one of the political party leader in Penang, Mr. A. The issue is about the origin of Malaysian Chinese (a term I would replace with "Chinese Malaysian") and also the "pendatang" claim.

I'm really disappointed with the statement made by this "respected" leader and also the consequence actions made by him after being criticized for this remark. What makes me even more disappointed is his refusal to apology. The reason he gave was that the statement was made when he talked about the pre-independence period, the British Colonization Period. What he was referring at that point of time was that the Chinese were brought by British into Malaya Land and that the unequal treatment provided by the British towards the Chinese widen the gap between the Chinese and Bumiputeras. In the end of the day, the Chinese was controlling the huge piece of economic cake in the country and that the Chinese are "unwilling" to share with the Bumiputeras. Because of this refusal of Chinese, the 513 Incident occurred. And the only solution for the problem is the Affirmative Action, or better known as New Economic Policy (NEP).

For me, this is even more nonsense. I suppose that this leader should have aware that the current situation is that the Citizen Of Malaysia is no longer wanting for NEP and any other race-based policy. What the people want now is equal share of social-economic welfare, regardless of ethnicity, religion, and class. The people has shown their choice in the 308 General Election. If this leader is really aware of this, I think it was a BIG mistake for him to make such a claim to woo voters during the Permatang Pauh By-Election. Making such claims and statements will only intensify the difference and misunderstanding between the people and the Coalition and also, most importantly, the people of these two ethinicities.

Another reason of arguing to his point is that the "willingness" of Chinese to share the economic pie equally with the Bumiputeras. Let me point out this point, that is how many out of the top-ten Public-Listed Company in the BSKL is owned by the Chinese? Less than 5!! And, how can he made such a claim that the Chinese are not willing to share and cooperate? If the Chinese are really unwilling to share, would the Chinese cooperate with the NEP for more than 30years? The opportunity given to the Bumiputera during the implementation of NEP for the pass 30years had even surpassed the opportunity given to the Chinse during the pre-Indenpendece period. Is it still not enough? The problem is not that the Chinese are not willing to share, but the implementation of the policy was failed considerably due to the management and implement of policies. As I had said in my earlier post, we are now the 3rd, 4th or even 5th generation since our forefathers migrated to Malaysia. We share the country and love the country as much as any other citizen of Malaysia do.

The only place I would call home is Malaysia and not China!
Therefore, I hope that this leader would follow the example of our Deputy Prime Minister to apologize to the people who felt hurt by the claim. It might not only be referring to single ethnicity, but also to other minority ethnicies. Hope that Mr. A would really make the wise move and may God bless him.

Communication in Relationship

I just had a dinner with my ex-roommate and his gf. We had our dinner in BBQ Plaza, 1-Utama. While we were walking to the restaurant, my ex-roommate was holding his gf's hand. I'd seen this type of scenario many times, but still, everything i see it, my heart will be soured. I'm not being jealous or envy or complaining to my fellow friends, but just something flash through my mind whenever i see this scenario: holding hands. I sometimes just couldn't stop myself from thinking the relationship problem i'm having now. Why cant I just have a normal relationship just like my friends around me? Why I always face so many problems? Is the problem with me? If it is really so, please tell me. I really wish to know.

I recalled an old saying "the key of a good relationship is communication". And I'm absolutely agree with it. I used to have a very very close friend, X. We talked a lot of stuffs and we never hide our problems and emotions from each other. I thought this kind of relation and trust would persist for a long time. But I was WRONG. We dun talk everything and anything to each other. Whenever we face problems, X and I would just keep quiet. We don't bother to tell each other how we feel and our opinions on the issue. We had since then be guessing on each other thoughts. We don't really communicate anymore. I'm so upset to see us turning into such situation.

X, i just want to tell you that: when we were still sharing with each other about our problems, no matter what problem it was, we could still help each other. Communication is the only way to develop trust in a relationship. No matter how tough the problem was, we faced it together, lending hand to each other , encouraged each other, supporting each other. But it was no longer be seen now. I'm really disappointed now. We do not talk to each other any longer. I afraid that, if this situation persist, the gap between us will be wider. If we do not talk to each other about our problems again, we might well be reaching a point where we really do not talking to each other. I'd seen many relationships turned sour because of not talking to each other. It's just like my situation and my father. And I don't hope that we'll reach that point where we treat each other as invisible.

Communication, key to develope trust.

Aftermath of mid-semester test

I had a mid semester test today. Today's paper is Microeconomics 3, not a tough course, and yet, my careless mistakes proved to be costly. It was 2 careless mistakes that shouldn't had happened, but, ironically, i did it. Well, I think I would be doing moderate in this time around.

I went to a meeting today and we talked about the cc-trip (cc means Chinese Community of 7th Residential College of UM). It was just another ordinary meeting, but there was something that captured my attention. I heard that quite a number of my badge college-mates are not joining the trip. I was quite upset by their decisions. Recalling back my experience as the organizer of the trip a year ago, it was a tough one. I could still remember the major problem that i faced last year was that the lack of participants. Me and my commitee members were scratching our heads to attract the participants for the trip. And what happens now make me feel even more upset. I'm upset because my badge of college-mates had forgotten the hardship they had endured, how they overcame it, how they complaint and how they suffered because of it. I'm really upset. Now, as the senior, or better to be known as ex-officio, the best i could contribute to the current commitee is to try persuade my fellow college mates to join the trip. I just hope that they can put down all the negative thoughts, either it's on the 2nd year's style of organizing, the contents of the trip or any other possibilities. Just give it a try and feel the trip. I believe that this feeling and experience would be very different with ours as 1st year and 2nd year students.

The utmost important of the trip is to folster the unity and ties among us, I mean the whole 7th CC in this context. It's a great platform for us to kow more about our juniors. If this is not the time, when will it be? This perhaps is the final year of us being an undergraduate. Grab the opportunity and not to waste it. :)

Farewell to My Roommate

Today, my roommate of 1 year and 3 months will be moving out. He had graduated from the course and finished his term as UM student council. Finally, the time has arrived and he will be moving out today.

Supposingly he had to move out 3 months ago, but he still became my roommate this semester due to his responsibility in the student council. Now thinking back our time as roommate, it was really enjoyable and nice. I can never asked for a better roommate. We chat and share a lot, and our roommate talk topic is quite different to others. We often talk about issues, politics and even our problems. Frankly speaking, I am really gratitude to have him as my roommate. I learnt a lot from him, and he helped me a lot in guiding me.

But, he would still need to move out today. There is a chinese proverb says:" There will never be a banquet that never ends." My dear roommate, wish you all the best in your career. May God bless you and your family.

Thank you Bryant!

Merdeka Spirit!

"Merdeka, Merdeka, Merdeka!!!"

It was 51years since the famous slogan was shouted. Since then, the slogan was shouted at the every morning of 31st August. Even when the students finished their exam, the students will repeat this slogan as well. :)

I'm prompted to write this blog on this memorable day. I'm proud to proclaim that i'm a truly Malaysian. I'm so proud of my national identity as Malaysia is a very unique place. The development of Malaysia since Independence has been remarkable. The socio-economic has developed, the living standard has increased, the literacy rate has increased and etc. It is very much down to the unity that we had for the pass 50years.

However, despite all these facts, i would like to say that we shall not be too proud of the development. The development MUST not stop at here. The recent politics development within our country has shown that the people had changed. The people do not want any race-based politics anymore. The policy might be relevant in the post-independence development, but not now. The scenario has changed since 51 years ago. The continuity of race-based policy will only be damaging to the people of this lovely country. What I would like to say at here is that the the concept of "generational" change. I just use myself as the example, I'm the 3rd generation of Chinese migrant. But I do not consider myself has any link to China anymore. To me, Malaysia is my ancestral land, not China. Honestly, I do not have any link with China, and I never went to China before. After half a century of mixing together, the heirs of Malay, Chinese, Indian and other minorities had been sharing the same education & mixing with other cultures. The gap between the race is no longer as wide as before. Therefore, race-based policy will only widen the gap again, which is damaging to the nation.

Multi-racial policy is the one that the people of the nation need.
I wont consider myself as a Malaysia Chinese, but rather a Chinese Malaysia.
I'm here wishing every citizen of Malaysia, Happy Merdeka!

Hello My Friends :)

Hello!

Finally i had created my own blogspot to share my views and stories with my friends. I had always wanted to have a blogspot, but due to lack of time to manage my blogs, i couldn't had one for the pass 2 years. But it's different now as i have more time and initiatives to manage my blogs. Hope that it has never been to late :) Oh ya~~ I'll try to be a good boy. I'll try to update my blogs as often as possible. Hope that you'll enjoy my blogs. have a nice day :)

Best regards,

- SepH -